When Amma came to my hometown in the U.S., I didn’t know what darshan was or what it meant. A friend told me, “Amma is a saint! It is a huge blessing to be in her presence.” I got a token, I got a hug, and
afterwards I wasn’t sure how I felt about it. Was I supposed feel more? Other people seemed to.
I asked my friend, Grace, about her experience. “Oh, it’s when I look into her eyes!” she said. “It’s like looking into the depths of the universe!”
“I couldn’t meet her eyes!” I exclaimed. Suddenly I understood. I couldn’t look Amma in the eye. Even while she drew me into her lap of infinite love and compassion, I looked away as if to look away from love itself!
With this realization, I had new eyes to see the divinity of Amma and the love she offers. The next time Amma came to my hometown, I received darshan and looked into her eyes. I saw only love. It had always been there for me and all her children, even those who were afraid to look.
– Nanette Ray