Letter to Amma for the New Year
In this 1st day of 2009 I write you this letter.
As my Guru, I ask you to remove all the negative tendencies out of me. I pray that you burn me like the many other Devas of your splendid Form did on the battlefield of Kurukshetra, when you revealed yourself to Arjuna. By getting this boon from the Supreme, I will surely attain you. All this anger, bad thoughts, negative vibrations & all those emotions that block me from my true nature, I offer them at your Lotus Feet. Dance on me like you did when you killed the demon & stopped your destruction on Shiva’s chest. I might be irrespectuous to give you such things of myself when you deserve all the petals of the most fragrant flowers of the universe at your Holy Feet, maybe I am allowed to do so, I don’t know. This heart loves you dearly, that’s all I truly know, the rest I ignore. Teach me the goodness & compassion, deliver me from my own ego by giving me the most valuable gifts a human being of my level (so low I am!) can get. I probably don’t deserve all this from you, but my heart wants to be good. I want to do good to others, so it might start here, with tolerance & patience, qualities I don’t possess. Bless this daughter of yours with these wishes granted.
Amma, Krishna, Kali, whatever the Name the devotees give you, you are my everything & to you I want to surrender. I want to be a good devotee of yours, from your mold I could be perfect, cause you are perfect. It is easy to say “I surrender” but to really do it it different. I need to walk in your Footsteps so I can learn the right way. As my Mother, bear me in your womb like a tree bear its fruits until complete maturation. But between me & you, I don’t really want to be ripe like a fruit if you grant me the blessing of being within you until I am ready to go out like a baby after 9 months of growth with her mother’s belly because it would mean to cut the cord between us Amma. I don’t think I would ever be ready for separation from you, I just want you to carry me & protect me. Protect me fom others, from myself too.
I don’t ask for materialistic possessions because they don’t make me happy. If only you could give me the desire to do more spiritual practices, that only would fulfill me, completely. Come to me darling Mother, my ears ache to hear you sing & from your divine embrace I want to feel the thousands qualities of the Divine Mother. May this year & the next to come be blissful & as loving as you are.
Your baby, Maheswari.
that was a beautiful letter…
expresses the desire of a true child to our most beloved amma…
thanks for posting…
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That’s the prayer of most of AMMA’s children.
Thank you for finding the rights words and expressing what many of us who are Amma’s children want to say to her each day but find so hard to express…..such a beautiful letter Maheswari
Superb letter. May all that is negative be burned away in the fire of Amma’s love.
A letter from a true heart. Thank you for putting your heart into words so many of us can contemplate and pray similarly.
Beautiful letter. I felt you wrote this letter representing all devotees, as Arjuna asked questions in the battlefield representing all humanity, which is relevant. Amma Sharanam
Dear Maheswari thanks a ton for posting this sacred loving letter, you have pened down the innermost feeling of not only yours but many devotees, who are in love with AMMA but cannot express in writing. As I read your prayer to my beloved AMMA, I feel I am uttering all these also.
Maheswari thanks a lot for this heart touching letter that you wrote to our beloved Amma. My eyes are overflowing with tears. I also wish to pray along with you at the Lotus feet of our Amma.
I thank you so much for sharing your heart with us. Indeed I totally join your prayer, you expressed this so well. Thank you!!!!!
Much love
Maheswari you are such a poet!
Thank you so much Maheswari for posting this letter . May Amma’s Love And Blessings be always with you .