Bharata Yatra 2009,

When i arrived in the Ashram 3 days earlier I didnt know that i ‘d go on tour with Amma. And when i learned about it, I decided to go even if i was not very confident for I dont know much about AMMA, I dont even know what “Aum Namah Shivaya” means, i just say it becasus i feel what it means.

So here I am in Kodungaloor alone, without any family,friends and any cellphone since it fell off the train during my way to the Ashram. I am surrounded by people i dont know.  That day was my birthday. I decided to go for a walk in the little park in front of the school – And what do i see? Two people drawing a birthday cake. What a surprise ! I asked them if i can blow the candles because its my birthday today, they agreed and i made a wish, blow the candles and they also gave me an AMMA’s sticker that says “Be innocent like a child”. I really felt welcome, I had the feeling that the universe was responding to me.

Then i remembered that incredible dream i had in the train to Kayamkulam : I was travelling with many people in a strange vehicle surrounded by a yellow light. And suddenly i was attacked by rat, I was calling for help and all the people around me were panicking, they were screaming “Go to the Queen, She alone can help, go to the queen”. With difficulty I walked to the queen who was all blue. She was very calm and comforted me. She talked me for a long time in a language i dont understand. The rats vanished i felt releived.

AMMA i really think you were the queen, and my friends were all of you people in that dream. The rats may represent the attachments to samsara so i maybe ready to see them and detach, that is why I’m coming to see the queen.

AMMA says that birthdays are also death days and it reminds us that every year we get closer to the death, death can come at anytime. She tells us the story of the little boy who studies for surprise test and his grandfather meditating, getinng ready for his surprise test which is detah. Birthdays are good opportunity to evaluate our progress towards the goal.

I thanked AMMA for the birthday cake and for calling and AMMA says that we dont need cellphones for that everybody has a direct connection with the divine…. And its free of charge ….

– Natasha