It was barely a year and a half since I first met Amma but it seemed as though I knew her for ages. I was blessed to be with Amma at Bangalore. It was a great pleasure for us, the students of Amrita School of Engineering, Bangalore to volunteer for Amma’s darshan programme and since this was my first seva at the ashram I was naturally excited. I chose crowd controlling near the stage with a desire to be near Amma for the rest of the two days. By the end of the day our lecturers announced that our turn would be after the public darshan got over.
I enthusiastically waited for my turn, making note of every gesture of Amma. At around 1 am Amma called all the students to come in a line. I was overjoyed but nervous since I wanted to ask Amma for a mantra. The queue moved forward and I was nearing Amma slowly. My only prayer was that she grant me a mantra. Amma embraced me. I started to speak but she hugged me once again and held me for a long time in her arms. I said, “Amma, mantra…” She smiled and answered, “Come tomorrow…” I was on cloud nine and kept on chanting “Amma, amma…” Suddenly I began lose my consciousness and fell down. Fortunately, the brahmacharinis there helped me with water but I couldn’t stand. Seeing the commotion near the stage Amma cried out to me, “There’s nothing to fear child.” I couldn’t stop crying. Amma asked the brahmacharinis to bring me to Her and they lifted me and placed me on her laps. I lay on her lap like a child on its mother’s. The darshan stopped for almost a minute. I gazed at her till my thirst was quenched. I spoke, “Amma, I want you…” She replied, “Amma knows…”
After a few months after the darshan, I happened to read a book entitled, “Man’s Eternal Quest” by Sri Paramahansa Yoganandaji in which he said, “… when a thought becomes deeply rooted in the subconscious mind, the divine grace is bound to flow to make the thought come true.” When I went through the pages of my life after Amma’s entry into my life, I was shocked to recall that I imagined to sleep on Amma’s lap before I went to bed every night. Was that the reason why Amma said, “Amma knows…”?
– Shikha
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