I am sure lately more people, especially children, have heard about Bulgaria, particularly thanks to the Harry Potter series. But in general this small European country is not known to many. Having been with Amma for more than ten years, I am pleasantly surprised when I find some of my fellow countrymen in her international family; there are not many. Therefore, for years, when I was asked the language question by Amma’s assistants during darshan, I always replied: “English will be fine”, as I didn’t expect Amma to speak Bulgarian. And I was enjoying her loving words, “My darling daughter” whispered in my ears. Yes, I have heard her addressing people in German, French, Japanese, Spanish, Italian and many Indian tongues, but my rational mind explained this by her visiting and having programs in those countries.
Few years ago, I was ready to go to a retreat in Michigan. Before leaving I called Valya, a Bulgarian friend of mine, who had never met Amma but had heard about her through me. I shared my eagerness to see Amma soon. Arriving at the hotel, I was so happy to be again with her and I was going with joy to get my darshan. Without any reason, however, this time, when asked what is my native language, I replied, “Bulgarian.” Amma hugged me and was whispering something in my ear which was different from what she had told me before. But I was so lost in her embrace that I didn’t care what she was telling me – just wanted to stay there forever. But Amma pushed me back and said clearly in my face repeating it three times, “Moya lyubima dashterya” in her soft singing voice. I couldn’t believe it! Amma was telling me that I am her darling daughter in my own language! Tears started pouring from my eyes, I couldn’t stop sobbing even after I left her. She continued using Bulgarian during the next darshans. Now I was ready to hear it, but nevertheless it always made me very emotional.
After I returned from my trip, I immediately called my friend:
– Valya, do you know what happen at the retreat? During darshan Amma told me in Bulgarian, “My darling daughter” –she told me, “Moya lyubima dashterya”!
My friend was silent for a moment, then said:
– I have to confess something. When you told me that you are going to a retreat with Amma, I thought to myself: If she tells you even one word in Bulgarian, I will believe in her Divinity.
I didn’t know about that, but Amma knew. For this reason she made sure that I heard her talking in Bulgarian nice and clear, not only for me, but for my friend as well.
Now she does it every time when I go for a darshan. Once I again started doubting: probably Amma learned just this phrase Moya lyubima dashterya – there are some Bulgarians coming to her programs in the world. Then, at the next darshan Amma told me, “Moya skapa dashetrya” (My precious daughter) to disarm my skeptical mind.
During Devi Bhava last year in Michigan she said once in English, “My darling daughter”, as if testing and teasing me, then started laughing and in her soft beautiful voice again brought music to my ears with Moia ljubima dushterja.
Nandhee (thanks), Amma
Manasi
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