19 Jan 2009 —
Question
Q105: Saddest day?
Question 105:
“What was the saddest day in your life? Do you feel it to have also been, a valuable spiritual learning experience?”
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I dont think i had a REALLY sad day in my life… Maybe at times i felt somehow bad, but then looking back at it, now i know it was just another small lesson to learn in this nice journey that is called Life.
Anyway, if it weren’t for these great lessons, how could we ever evolve spiritually and grow to a higher level of maturity?!
days that i have felt totally alone, totally ignorant of my connection to god. and disconnected from the world. maybe it made me stronger. or was it just a payment for bad karma? i don’t know.
I was very attached to my father. when he had some physical ailment, I too had the same ailment often not to the same degree though. My father passed away last September ’08.This was the saddest moment in my life. This was the first time I was losing someone who was very close to me. He was taken to the emergency after a heart attack. He was to go through a procedure to remove the blocks. During that time I prayed intensely to Amma to help my father. I saw Amma so clearly with my mind’s eye holding my father tightly. She looked very sternly at the doctor who was telling me that he was in a hopeless condition and would not survive this procedure. Amma gave me enough strength to go through this phase. Amma’s presence at the hospital was as convincing as the presence of other people in the hospital. During his last days, father read three books of Amma which seemed unusual for me.
My saddest day was when Tsunami stuck India.
If one has known the reality of self nothing affects him or her whether it is happiness or sadness. The internal bliss overpowers everything else.
The saddest day for all of us, as far as AMMA’s children are considered is when we miss AMMA. I remember one incident that made me so sad when i missed HER Darsan. I came from home with my mother, sister and her little son. They planned to come for getting the little baby blessed by AMMA. I was very happy when heard of the journey to Amritapuri and started imagining the moments when i fall into Her lap.The dreams made me so happy that i didnt feel the long travel.
But when we had reached there, my mother tried to get special token for the child. I came to know that they were no longer going to wait for me to get Darsan. My sister and her son got Darsan but still i was standing shocked when she told that let us go back. I told that i too wanted darsan. My mother told me that it will be late if you get the token and wait for Darsan. you can have next time.”
I felt very sad inside me and tears came down from my cheeks.
Now whenever i am near AMMA, i try to make use of those moments maximum because i know the pain of not being with HER.
Yes, sadness brought by the evil deeds and the slippery ignorance. The depth of its suffering naturally makes ones to be wise and walk safely on the spiritual path.
When I was younger, about 2 years ago, I read that Amma had discontinued Krishna Bhava. It had been a desire of mine so see Her in Sri Krishna Bhava. I was sooooo distraught I cried for around 4 hours straight. I think this was the saddest day so far.
i dont want to disclose the saddest day in my life. Amma knows it.
The saddest day is when i have to leave AMMA and go far away for work. But doing AMMA’s work, gives satsifaction at the end of the day even if you are far away from HER. But then you feel HER presence, when you long for HER.
there have been so many sad days in my life…unbearable sadness that drags me down into the depths of suffering and torment…sadness for myself, others, and all the cruelty and ignorance that societies are built on…i try to find the lessons, the teachings, the gift of the pain but many times i do not understand anything…sometimes the only thing i learn is that life can be painful…
and the unconditional love that Amma embraces me with is the only medicine that will heal me…we are so lucky…thank you Amma!!!
when my biological mother died , it taught be to look for Mother in Universe behold I found One :)))
i was just going through the diary on Ammas site…saw this portion of the diary and i thought i had to write what i am going through at this moment…
i have acquired a bad name in my college….because i went with my best friend to bangalore without telling my mother… i am in a situation that no one can imagine……no stand of my own…..and there is no one to support….AMMA advised me to join this college…so, i am destined to experience what i am experiencing. all i can do today is pray and wait for things to be fine….
For me a sad day is always the saddest day. i remember as a child the day my little dog died. that was really very sad. even smaller i remember when some fishes died. then i also remember many days when i used to feel trapped in a world that didn’t make sense to me… when i realised that i would never find the happiness and perfect love i was searching for in this world! these were days of endless crying. it’s over !
The saddest day of my life is when my 6 week old son was in intensive care. I did not eat nor sleep for days on end. Now he is a healthy and happy 2 year old. I learned that it is the mind that controls all of our functions so once we master the mind we master ourselves. Many of us are unwell with our minds so Amma like a devoted mother gives us darsharn for hours on end without food or rest because she knows her children need her to get well. Through this I see that Mother only suffering is ours so we must do our best to stay healthy and happy for her health and happiness.
My saddest day is always the day amma leaves England after three days Dharshan. It is very difficult to control the emotions, tears and let go of Amma’s physical presence, although she is spiritually present everywhere. Amma always say learn from your experience, however i find it hard to learn anything from this experience, i just feel deep sadness, separation and feel lost for many days. Remembering those days gives intense pain itself.
so many were there…but now when i look back, i feel, those experiences helped me to come closer to Amma…if i had a childhood filled with worldly pleasures i would have become a spoiled child…i wouldn’t have given any notice to the life of Mahatmas…each experience taught me the folly of worldly life…more lessons are yet to come…I am actually happy with the presence of our beloved Amma and thankful to all those experiences which have actually brought me to Her… when She is there nothing can affect us!
The days when my biological mother, father and brother passed away brought deep sorrow. That time i was not aware of the spiritual knowledge and i was deeply affected. When i got this great knowledge i almost recovered from that sorrow.
The saddest day in my life was the day I was betrayed… I knew what was to be lonely amongst the multitude, and amongst one’s own family. Though it was the saddest day in my life, I discovered very fast that it was the happiest day of my life too because I was spiritually embraced by Divine Mother and knew deep inside that it was the day of my spiritual rebirth. That day I knew that my world was only an illusion and that Truth was my aim. I had to choose between bitterness or love and compassion and knew that the only way was Spiritual Growth. It seems I was ready to be a disciple, so I finally found my Master – or Amma found me.
Everyday when I am not in Amma’s divine presence. When she comes to USA, I cry with bliss! After all, I had been waiting for her for such a long time! Namah Sivaya…
PS. I think this is a sadness for each and every one of Amma’s children…
I think sadness is relative…in my experience….when I was hit by one bad thing…I thought that was the saddest thing ever, only till the next one which is even more sad. This is relative…now I feel that sadness is something we think at that particular moment….when that moment is gone…sadness is gone….time gives us enough psychological distance..that we all tend to evolve and outlive that….ofcourse with amma’s blessings….even ammas presence….if we think that it is present all the time…there shouldn’t be a real sadness..
As Two eagles say…saddness gave me strength and helped me to find the presence of amma and feel her love….
i’ve noticed that when a great amount, or a small amount, of sadness wells up within in me i cry out to God, to Amma, knowing that that is the only way that i will be consoled. when i’m out of tears the relief that i feel is immediate and immense.
When I lost my dad in 1992, I had lost hope in life. Again in 2000 when I lost my mom. These two days are the saddest days of my life.
I had learnt a lot about the value of blood relations. I pray Amma to be with me always.
The day that i realised that due to ignorance my mother lost her life… ignorance of her sickness… and to realise that she was the best person i had come across in my life…
many sad days and months over the years. but these days trigerred the search for spirituality in me over the years too.
now it is a difficult time too because my mother is sick since 6 months.
but i am learning a lot.
The saddest day, will be that day- sometime in the future when I’ll be talking to people about the wonderful memories I have about Amma and bitterly regret how I did not make the proper Sadhana to make proper use of such a unique once-in-a-lifetime chance to make proper use of this birth where I could meet Amma in person!
The Saddest thing is that there are people today being deprived from a normal life style. Getting up everyday with the sound of bomb blast.. terrified each and every moment, not sure about what’s going to happen next… each and every child wakes up crying in fear…they are still not receiving an ordinary childhood, some don’t even get a chance to reach their teenage. Small toddlers being blasted… Where is this world heading to…Only Mahatmas like AMMA can guide us to help such people who are suffering, tears roll down when seeing people suffer in pain..I pray that one day all these will stop.
sad that i am far away from amma.
Chanting mantra made me stronger. I feel this birth is so precious and i am so lucky to have Amma, and thankful to all those experiences i had. That’s true, i am sad when i am far away from Amma.